Admittedly I have not eaten that well for the last week (or so), but I have actually gained
0.9kg! So I am currently 87.7kg
I should be around 86.3kg
Now I am 3 weeks behind.
better 3 weeks than 10.
I have done the whole
why? why? why?
Why was it so EASY to gain 1kg in a week when it takes so much EFFORT to lose 0.5kg a week?
Why, when I am doing quite a bit of physical work on the farm, am I gaining weight?
I just don't get it.
Really, I don't.
regardless of whether I 'get it' or not,
it is what it is so I just have to suck it up and get on with it.
Get on with no breakfast, have lunch, have fruit at 3pmish (today was fruit and 1 piece of toast with peanut butter), have dinner. Fullstop.
Which is not making me a happy camper,
as of right now I want a chocolate dessert with custard.
It won't hurt, will it?
Just once more?
YES! IT WILL!
I just want to be a normal weight again.
I just want to feel 'normal' in public again.
And I am (finally) prepared to put the work in to achieve it.