So the injections are going well so far. I do work myself into a bit of a state before each shot (actually for a good hour or two before each shot). Stupid really, as they don't really hurt THAT much, just a wee sting, but still, each and every day so far I have felt sick at the thought of having my shots. TJL tells me to not think about it … bah ha ha ha haaaaa … if I knew how to not think about it I definitely would be doing that. Its not a major state, just makes me feel 'sad' if anything. Random, I know, but thats how I'm feeling at the moment … sad, and overwhelmed - far too much going on at the moment.
I just had my first Gonal F shot tonight. It is the 'big one', so of course I was more worried than usual. TJL has been doing great with the injections so far, aside from the second one when he forgot to pinch up a bit of skin and just 'stuck the needle in', I got jabbed twice at that one, and he got a bit of a 'telling off' … lol. And it's not like I don't have a lot of extra 'skin' … hahaha
However, none of his shots have been as good as the first one, and I worked out today it is because he is used to injecting cows. One thing about cows, they have thick, tough hides. You need to use a bit of 'force and distance' when injecting them. Unfortunately he had been doing the same with me! I thought to tell him tonight, before my two shots, that he doesn't need to inject me like a cow, and a gentle insertion of the needle should be fine. Fortunately it worked, and the 'pain' was minimal. And when I say pain, on a scale of 1-10 its about a 2 … lol. But I will get nervous again tomorrow before my shots, and I dare say this will continue until I no longer need to have any shots at all.
And now to bed.