It's weird, but currently I am just so happy being childless. I actually hesitate to write it because I know that there are so many people out there that struggle with it, and I too have wrestled with it, but right now, of this very moment, I am just so content not having kids.
Our house is quiet! If you go to my sisters (3 kids) or my sister in laws (4 kids) the noise is just incomprehensible. Seriously, I actually like to leave and have some down time, some quiet time. If we have kids I won't be able to get that. And they just demand so much of your attention. Lets face it, kids are tiring! And messy!
If I want to go anywhere the only person I have to consider is Trent. He gets asked if he wants to come - yes/no - we/I get in the car and go. I can go to the basketball, horse events, the beach and I don't have to pack up someone else's belongings, and sit through a whole lot of 'I'm bored, I'm hungry, When are we going home, I'm bored, I'm hungry, When are we going home …..
All of my time is MINE!! I can do what I want, when I want, with who I want. No interruptions. I can get my work done with no interruptions. I can cook dinner with no interruptions. I can exercise with no interruptions. I don't have to plan anything around anyone else (aside from TJL, but that's a piece of cake!) my time is all mine.
So this is all looking pretty selfish, but really I don't care. At the moment I am getting back into exercise - BECAUSE I CAN, and going to the beach, and planning a winter holiday for TWO ADULTS, and we can go anywhere and do anything! I am actually seeing the positive side of being childless. Boyah!
Of course, if we get pregnant I will be stoked, and I am sure I will be back to my regular 'why can't we/don't we have kids' whine and rant, but for now I AM HAPPY BEING CHILDLESS!